Thursday, July 23, 2009
just when i thought i could move on from
you. just when i thought i could... I really do not want to go back there again.
i really hope that i can find someone better than you.
instinctively.
S ranted at 4:09 am |
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Friday, July 17, 2009
Hey!
Just thought I'll share this message with you which I heard in church last week. Not sure when was the last time you when to church, I for one haven't been in a while. And without fail, each time I return to church, God's message is just so powerful. Try to go to church when you can. He never fails to amaze and touch me.
First watch this video:
Hillsong: I Heart Revolution ; to me this is an amazing amazing powerful video. The contrast it makes of the two different world that exist in this world is so clear and yes unfair.
These people are:
1. Victims of circumstances - they were born into these circumstances, they were given.
2. Out of control - It is out of their control as to what is given to them, and these circumstances
3. Dependent on someone else to save them - dependent on people like me and you to help them as much as we can
And yes, this is basically the message of the day.
To help the poor; freely we receive, freely we should give; to recongise where we come from.Here's a verse from the Bible:
James 1:26-27 26If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. 27Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the worldAnother, but just highlighting one line:
Galatians 2:6-1010All they asked was that we should continue to remember the poor, the very thing I was eager to doThe Bible, the Lord says to "look after the orphans and widows in their distress", and we as children as God should do as He wants us to do. The pastor mentioned that the church isn't a humanitarian organisation. We are doing this not because it is a humane thing to do, but because to
bring out God's colour and to obey and spread His words, as he would want us to.
He then gave another passage from the Bible, the story of the Good Samaritan:
Luke 10:25-37 25On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?"
26"What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?"
27He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself."
28"You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live."
29But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, "And who is my neighbor?"
30In reply Jesus said: "A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead.31A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, took him to an inn and took care of him. 35The next day he took out two silver coins and gave them to the innkeeper. 'Look after him,' he said, 'and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.'
36"Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?"
37The expert in the law replied, "The one who had mercy on him."
Jesus told him, "Go and do likewise."Yes -
"Love your neighbor as yourself" ; These people in the video, the ONE billion people in the world that aren't as fortunate as us, are our neighbours. In this story, the lawyer asked who his neighbour is, and Jesus replied with this story. It doesn't matter who the neighbour is, doesn't matter who your neighbour is, it is who you are to them. You are the neighbour to them. The people who needs your help, are your neighbour.
The pastor also mentioned, don't be a
sympathetic christian, but be a
compassionate christian. A sympathetic christian feels for these people, but just feels and does nothing. A compassionate christian is one who not only feels but actually does something. I pray that you all will be compassionate christians, and be it donation or actually doing something for them, you are helping them.
I for one, am more certain than ever that I will go down the path I have thought about for a while. My first encounter was in my 3rd year when I met this consultant who specialises in tuberculosis (TB). He goes to Zimbabwe at least once or twice a year to help with the situation in regards to TB. Subsequently I went to Thailand and South Africa and thoroughly thoroughly enjoyed myself. At some point, I hope that when I reached my consultancy as an Oncologist, I will be able to give back just like this consultant. But am thinking more of China, see how :) Whatever my path will be, I know God has a plan for me and I have Faith. :)
I'm not a saint or some super good christian. I am just one of God's children. But I just want to share this with you guys, because I know how ugly and unethical the world has become. And I just want to remind you that there is more than just money and career in life. There is more purpose in life.
Lastly, the pastor gave an analogy right in the beginning; about how you know when we first started driving, there's so much to watch out for and remember. There's the mirror to adjust, where the signal and wipers are, checking for blindspots, handling the wheel, changing the gear, the clutch and accelerator, that we actually forget the most important thing - to drive forward.
However now, after driving for a while, all these have become a part of us. It has become an instinct to us; they come instinctively. And the pastor reminded us, to go forth and have Faith in the Lord. The rest - career, friendship, love etc etc will come
instinctively. He will bless us with what we need. So stay focus, spread His words and be a compassionate christian. The rest will come
instinctively.
Hope this email will give you some thoughts. The sermon touched me a lot and made me more sure of what I need to do. This email might not have the same impact as it did for me, but I hope you get what I'm trying to say.
May God bless you always and SMILE always :)
Love,
Sophia
S ranted at 7:32 am |
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Monday, September 15, 2008
I suddenly feel rather lost and sad. Many people come in and out your life all the time, but yet I feel upset that I cannot keep in touch with all those that mean/meant something to me. I know it's a sad fact of life, but I feel a need to keep in touch with the many people that came into my life. But it's so difficult, like I only have one heart, one mind, and there's so much I can only remember (I do have a goldfish memory btw). And when I do randomly think about someone, poof, one year has passed. This makes me wonder what have I done in the past year, not keeping in touch with this person. Then I feel upset.
So tell me what to do. I mean I can't ignore certain people, cos they are important. But yet I can't keep up, there's just too many. Too many that means something to me.
And then there's this group of people that means the world to me, but they are ignoring me. Great. Well it's my fault, but what I absolutely hate the most is they don't tell me why. At least if they tell me, then I'll know and won't bother anymore. But they just ignore me, and of cos there's no way I'll ever know unless they start talking to me. I don't know man. I don't know what to do. Feel so
lost, so
lost.It makes me wonder whether I'm a bad person. I can't keep in touch with the first group of people more often than I wished to, and there's this second group of people who's ignoring me. My friends would know what it means to me to know that I'm a good person, I'm a good person at heart. That's why I do certain things, that's why I want to achieve certain things. I mean I geuninely believe I'm a good person, and I'm not malicious or evil. But what if all this is just an act by myself? What if all these are just my little self-denial excuses? Man, I am mad.
I think I'm very afraid that one day, it will dawn upon me that all these are nothing but
lies. I think when that day comes, I'll go kill myself. Because when that day comes, to me there's no purpose in life anymore.
How awesome...
S ranted at 2:27 am |
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Tuesday, July 01, 2008
i knew all along what kinda person you are. but why do i still fool myself?
sophia, this has got to stop. and you know the answers.
i just wish i am
stronger.
S ranted at 9:17 am |
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Sunday, June 15, 2008
so
not worth it.
:)
and stressss. so much to do! i'm going to die! i can't wait for all these to be over and of cos
PASS! and i'll have like a superb superb holiday. can't wait! but will miss someone :( hope he doesn't go hk. bleah :(
can't wait for summer! WOOHOO! :)
S ranted at 9:50 pm |
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Monday, March 24, 2008
the world is such a funny place...
the world change so fast, the people change so fast. so fast that i can't catch up, so fast that i'm so confused. it's just so weird how a year can change so much. i look back at things, sometimes not even a year has passed... and things are so different.
so why is it that everyone is moving so quickly away from the past and here i am stuck still? why do i still cling on to the past that no longer mean anything to everyone? why...
i need to move on. i need to embrace the future. but i love reminiscing. hehe :P well.. time to move on soph. everyone doesn't think abt the past anymore, it's the future that maters to them only. so just wake up you dumb fool. :(
sigh. i hate...
p.s. gie you're not the only one who cares abt quackie. hehe :P but i think you come back more often then i do! HAHA! :P
S ranted at 3:02 pm |
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Tuesday, December 04, 2007
why is it the people i love the most, i care about the most, i end up hurting them the most? and instead i waste my time on useless scumbags. i don't want to say sorry anymore cos i know that no amount of "sorry"s can atone for what i've done. but i still wish that i never took them for granted, and wish they knew how much they meant, and how much i never wanted to hurt them, and if ever i'm allowed, i really want to turn back time.
i'm sorry,
jo han. i'm sorry,
alex. only the 2 of you can make me cry instantly. it's quite funny sometimes. lol.
i finally let alex go, when he found his new love. when he was happy again. though it felt weird inside, i know i was truly happy for him. still i sometimes wish i could make up for what i did, and be that person that makes him smile and laugh again.
maybe i'll never be able to fully let go of jo han (no matter how much he says he doesn't love me etc etc) when he finds that new love, just like alex did. though i really don't want that time to come, i know it will. unless it's me which hmm i don't know. i know that i'm not holding on cos i can't get him. cos i know that i will and can let go of him if i really want to. the thing is i want to be that person to heal his heart, to make him happy and smile again. but if someone else better can do it, i'll still be happy for him. he was the angel that God sent to me. and yet i spoilt every thing. he was that person, i never felt so sure before ever since alex. even now, no one has ever made me feel this way. but he will never know, he will never believe. cos of all the horrible things i did.
and soon it will be 2 years since we broke up, making it 3 years since he first came into my life. and if it's time that he's waiting to show what love is, i think it's time. at least it's showed me. my love for him never went down a single bit. i know it's still as strong as ever. though many other things have happened, and it's simply just cos of my selfish side wanting to be happy just for a while. and get away from things that makes me cry, make me sad.
aih i think i should stop ranting. goodbye, dead blog. i'll come back again one day i promise. :)
p.s. should have never opened that damn box. i knew that will happen. so annoying. grrr. haha. :P exam stresssss perhaps :(
S ranted at 10:47 pm |
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